Letting Go

The past few months have been pretty tough for me, I've had to do a lot of letting go. I've had to let go of a few friendships that were either hurtful or just not working anymore. I let go of a relationship that died long ago that I tried desperately to hold on to. I've had to let go of some of the ideals that I had for my life.....I never thought I'd be 30 and still single!

Letting go hurts so much but I've learned that there is good in it also. Once I started letting go of hurtful people and things in my life, better things started coming in! I've rekindled some old friendships that had been neglected and now they mean SO much to me. I actually WANT to date other people now, I'm EXCITED about dating! I feel like I'm starting over and there is so much goodness to come!

I feel like I have just been struggling against everything over the past few years. Nothing seemed to work the way I wanted it to, I was always dissapointed. For example...my surgery. I have been wanting this surgery (Lap Band) for so long and every avenue I tried to get it didn't work out. I felt like it would never happen and was about to give up. Finally one day I thought "I can't do this anymore, I need help". So I prayed. I prayed and sobbed for about an hour. Eventually I started feeling calmer and thought "I just have to go along with whatever happens, I can't fight it anymore". I stopped fighting it and a few days later I got the call from the surgery center to set up a date for surgery! I think sometimes God just wants us to stop fighting everything. He wants us to just go with the flow for awhile and let things happen the way they are supposed to.
I have much more work to do on myself but I feel like I've made a good start and I can't wait to see what God has planned for me next!