New Church

Well, I think I have found a church home. I have been to this church several times and I really enjoy it and look forward to going. I have never really looked forward to church before, when i was younger I actually hated going. I have several friends that also attend The Village Church, which is how I found out about it.
I have been struggling so much over the past several years and feeling like I needed to "find myself".....for lack of a better descriptive term. I've read so many books and listened to so many podcasts and lectures...nothing seemed to help. I know that what I have been missing this entire time is a relationship with God. I guess I have always thought I had a relationship with Him but in reality I just knew OF Him. So, I am now working on this. I am relatively new to this and am a bit confused still. I feel like I have wasted so much time NOT having a relationship with God and feel guilty for not putting Him first in my life. I guess I am struggling a little with the emotions that come along with all of this. If anyone has any advice I welcome it!